The Secrets and Their Keeper

RULES:- Tell 100 Truths
- Tag 15 people after
- They do the same back to you
- Do Not Pass Go
- Do Not Collect $200

LAST:
1. Last beverage : Chocolate RAIN (Actually chocolate milk)
2. Last phone call : I think my mom...? Asking me for something...? I think...?
3. Last text message : "Even looking at another person with lust is a sin!" - Inside joke with Kaela.
4. Last song you listened : Forza Del Destino - Tetsuya Shibata (Devil May Cry 4 OST - Dante Battle 2 Theme)
5. last time you cried : A day ago? Two days ago?

SIX HAVE YOU EVER’s

6. Dated someone twice : I've only dated one person once.
7. Been cheated on? : No. I know he wouldn't, I still trust him.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? : Nope.
9. Lost someone special? : Definitely.
10. Been depressed? : NO. D:<
11. Had a friend turn on you : I'm the turner.

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
Red, Black, Blue, and Gold~

HAVE YOU:

12. Made new friends : XBox Live is a marvelous thing.
13. Fallen out of love : I have.
14. Laughed until you cried : Almost every week.
15. Met someone who changed : I live with someone who is still changing.
16. Found out who your true friends are : Kind of?
17. Found out someone was talking about you : But of coursssssssssse.
18. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : No.
19. How many people on your friend's list have you dated?: Friends list?!
20. How many kids do you want : FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK KIDS AAAAAARGH
22. Do you want to change your name : Nah, I like my name.
23. What did you do for your last birthday : I did a TOTAL PRINCE OF PERSIA RUN.
24. What time did you wake up today : 8:46 a.m.
25. What were you doing at midnight last night : Watching The Story of Saiunkoku. <3
27. Last time you saw your father : Maybe a week ago, I can't quite remember. Some time after Dracula died.
28. One thing you wish you could change about your life : Everything in my life, no matter how good or bad, has shaped me to what I am now. Im not too happy with myself, but I don't want to change anything.
29. What are you listening to right : Lina talking.
30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : I do believe so.
31. What's getting on your nerves right now? : The rats are chewing on their log really loud.
32. Most visited web page : Probably Questions for the Curious. I fucking love that forum so much.

ABOUT ME:

33. What's your name : Sabrina.
34. Nicknames : Brina, Bri, Rina, VG, VC, V, Zai, Lynne, Bitch, etc.
35. Zodiac sign : Saggitarius~
36. Male or female : Female hurr durr
37. Elementary : Lewis E. Rowe, Doris French, and Explore Knowledge Academy, respectively.
38. Middle School : Explore Knowldge Academy.
39. High school : Explore Knowledge Academy.
41. Long or short hair : Middle length to long.
42. Height : 5'3" I think.
43. Do you have a crush on someone? : Not since February.
45: What do you like about yourself physically? : I have lovely lovely hair. c:
46. Piercings : In my little earlobies.
47. Tattoos : Nope.
48. Righty or lefty : LEFTY AWW YEAH

FIRSTS:

49. First surgery : I should have had one, but fuck that.
50. First piercing : In my little earlobies.
51. First best friends : DEFINITELY NOT MY BROTHER.
52. First sport : Basketball.
53. First pet : Those two cats Tiger and Princess.
54. First vacation : Zion, I think.
55. First concert : Some Anime Convention Concert, I think it was Yoko Ishida.
56. First crush : Franky Moreno, the little Italian boy from first grade. <3

RIGHT NOW:

57. Eating : Nothing.
59. Drinking : Nothing.
60. I'm about to : Take a shower.
61. Listening to : Lina talking.
62. Waiting for : The Sonic Recreation of the End of the World.

YOUR FUTURE

63. Want kids? : FUCKING NO.
64. Want to get married? : Probably not.
65. Careers in mind? : Chemical Engineer, Vetranarian, Paper-editer person, writer.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER?

66. Lips or eyes : Eyes, probably.
67. Hugs or kisses : Depends on the situation.
68. Shorter or taller : Taller, definitely.
69. Older or Younger : Two year older max, one year younger minimum.
70. Romantic or spontaneous : Spontaneous.
71. Nice stomach or nice arms : Stomach...?
72. Sensitive or loud : Sensitive to an extent. I don't want some little crybaby pussyface.
73. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship.
74. Trouble maker or hesitant : Hesitant, definitely.

HAVE YOU EVER

75. Cried yourself to sleep : Unfortunately yes.
76. Passed out after drinking : No...?
77. Kissed a stranger : Close? xD
78. Drank hard liquor? Nope.
79. Jumped in a pool with clothes on : More times than I can count.
80. Lost glasses/contacts : For a very short time, yes.
81. Sex on first date : No way in hell.
82. Broken someone's heart : I think so. D:
83. Had your own heart broken : No.
87. Cried when someone died? : Um, duh.
88. Liked a friend that is the opposite gender? : What kind of question is this?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
(LIIIIFE AFTER LOVE AFTER LOVE AFTER LOOOOVE)

89. Yourself : Lately moreso than usual.
90. Miracles : There can be miraclesssss~ When you believe~
91. Love at first sight : I dont think so.
92. Heaven : Or Hell. Dual 1, Let's Rock!
93. Santa Clause : YES UNTIL LINA RUINED IT
95. Kiss on the first date? : Uhhh?
96. Angels : Yes, they'll fight the Evas and try to destroy the world.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? : I thought for a second that this said, "Is there one person you want to give birth with right now?" And the answer to that would be no.
98. Who is it? : No one.
99. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? : I have a fucking HAREM.
100. Told 100 truths on this? Actually, yes. No. Uhhhh...

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So I found this on my friend Cassandra's DeviantArt account and decided to do it out of boredom. I don't know fifteen people on here, so I'll tag the only two I do know.

Go Kaela and Lina! Go!

Woah.

Goddammit.
So after the shit-tastic weekend ended I finally thought I was done crying for Drac, I thought I'd finally come to terms with it all and being at school would help me move on.
Yet, just now, I just got done with an almost complete nervous breakdown with no warning. I wasn't listening to sad music or anything, I was finishing up my paper on Dark Energy, when BAM! Now I just got back from blowing my brains out through my nose, and figured that it's about time for an update.

So I pretty much hate life right now.

I'm not sure where this outburst came from, but I am just so fed up with like, everything right now. I just want to give up on my future and not give two shits about anything that's already happened. I am so angry with everything. Whenever people talk to me, the only thining I'm thinking is "Stop. Stop talking to me." I don't want to work, but I don't just want to sit around and do nothing, either. I can't get on XBox Live for more than a couple of minutes before I'm tired of it. I can't focus on my school work, but I cant even get distracted. I just sit there.
I'm tired, though.
Thats all I want to do, at all, all the time now. I just want to sleep. I'm so angry most of the time, but I just kind of sit around with my friends and try to let their insanity distract me. I laugh and stuff, then I come home and cry in random bursts.
I have to wait until my sister has long gone to sleep to take a shower and stuff, because I don't want her to hear me crying myself to sleep.
She just keeps telling me to get over it, he's gone, there's nothing else that can be done. I know that. I want to get over it, but I just can't. Every time I get too distracted for too long, this happens.
I am so tired of everything right now. Even doing easy shit is hard. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I hate myself for it, too. I'm being so dramatic over this whole thing and I know that I am, I know I need to get over it. I cant though, and it's making me sick. I feel so lame.

Also, my apostrophe button on my laptop is stuck. I have to pretty much fucking punch it to make it make just one damn '.

Music: Still Alive - Lisa Miskovsky (Mirror's Edge OST)
For some reason, this song was what triggered my restrained breakdown. It's not even a sad song.

Our dog died today.

We've had him for as long as I can remember, since 1996, and he was always there in all of my childhood memories. He was the best dog I could have ever hoped for, and I don't know what our life would be like today if we had decided to go on a different walk that day. I wonder how different our life would have been if we hadn't gotten him.

All I know is that it would have been so much more boring, so much blander without him. He brought that childish, loving atmosphere to our home every day, even though most of the time it was covered up by his atmosphere of deadly smell. No, Drac wasn't a pretty dog, he wasn't smart and got into a lot of dumb situations, and he wasn't the most well behaved creature either, getting into whatever kind of mess or trouble he could while we were gone.

Still, Dracula was Dracula, and I still love him dearly. I'll always miss him.

We took him to the vet today after we saw how bad his legs were last night. He was finally done, he finally gave in to the pain. We knew he couldn't suffer anymore.

We actually, to put it bluntly, got to watch him die. We wanted to be right by his side the whole way through, petting him and praising him even though he lost his hearing months ago. He went out peacefully, with fresh-eaten Spam still in him, a sort of silly looking grin on his face as he was sedated. I watched him stop breathing.

It was heart breaking, but for the best. I know he's happier now than he was here at home, barely able to walk or stand and falling over everywhere. We did the right thing for him, even if it was probably one o fhte hardest things we have ever had to do as a family.

Rest in peace, Old Man.

HAY GUISE GUESS WHAT I DO HAVE SWINE FLU.

SUPER SUPER COOL.
See my previous post for details, but I will tell you that although it did suck, it barely sucked moreso than any other flu.
I don't know why the whole world went into an uproar about it, the only people who died from it were those with poor health.

There was a little baby jumping spider on my laptop, and it was very cute. c:
Also, my Hunter cosplay pictures are in the previous post, for anyone I give this link to.

And AAAAH I have the worst muscle twitch in my arm right now. It's driving me up a wall.

So I am prety much going to, well, summarize what happened over last week on here.
Very few people read this, and even fewer actually care, but I like to kind of record this stuff.

So, I can't quite recall what happened the weekend after I put my "youtube" post up, but I do remember going to Chinatown and getting the most amazing Orange Chicken I've ever eaten. Seriously, Sam Wu's Barbecue has the best Orange Chicken ever; I'm never going to Panda Express again. I also got a nifty little chinese phone charm, so now my phone isn't quite as boring looking as it used to be. I also got a tiger-thing... I can't really eplain it. Once my sister gets an adapter for the new crazy camera she's using, she'll have to send me the pictures she took of it so I can post them up.

My tiger-thing is awesome.

The rest of the week was pretty shitty at school as usual, but Friday sucked major dick.
The only good thing that happened that day was Mr. Ruehle actually making coherent sense for once; Administration probably had a talk with him. But then things just kept getting worse in all of my classes, and when lunch finally rolled around Lina and I discovered that we had our lunch stolen. Not all of ti, but most of it had been taken; they even had the nerve to roll up our bag of Lays when they were done with them and shove it behind the computer at our desk. Real fucking cool.

Then, this really annoyting wigger-fuck dude who everyone hates, and I mean everyone, accused my sister of stealing stuff out of our lunchbox! What a fucking retard, and then he had the nerve to go on framing her with a bunch of fake bullshit! I was so pissed for the rest of the day, I swear to fucking god.

The only thing that made up for it was dying my hair the same day; It's this really cool maroon color that shines red in the sunlight. It's really badass, but it's washing out pretty fast because my hair hates dyes.

Then over this whole weekend, I somehoe managed to contract a spontaneous flu. Not the Swine Flu, but I definitely felt like I was dead. I had a sore throat on Saturday that I payed no mind to, but then I woke up on Sunday.

I was literally dead all Sunday. I didnt eat all day, and the longest I stayed awake was two hours before I'd relocate myself to another part of my house and fall asleep there. I felt really miserable all day, and my sister telling me to suck it up and that I was a drama queen didn't help any either. I've never felt worse in my life than I did yesterday; it was worse than when I got food poisoning, and I wasn't even throwing up. I was just like, bluh.

I feel better today though, my body's fighting it off and I hope I can go to school tomorrow and take my math test. I still feel really dizzy when I stand up though, and I've had this pounding headache all day. My body doesn't particularly like food now either, but I'm still incredibly glad that I'm not throwing up.

Also.
I told myself I wouldn't do it, but I am anyway.
I keep getting asked by my Live friends (as opposed to the dead ones - I have tons of those too) to show them my Hunter cosplay, but I told myself that I wouldn't put up pictures of that until I have at least one decent photo of what I look like on here first.
First impressions are everything, and now whenever I log on the handful of my friends I send this link to are going to be like, "Oh, it's that Hunter Girl." I don't like my name being associated casually with hoodlum ninja zombies.

I'm a happy one though. :D
I found this one on someone else's blog, putting underneath it "The best Hunter at AV 2009" I felt pretty cool.
I look like I'm grinning in this one for some reason; also found on someone else's AV '09 picture site.
Poor Zoey. xD
This last one has a bit of a story. I found this picture on another AV '09 blog post, and when I saw the first half of it I was like "It's the awesome Vegeta Cosplayer! Fuck yeah!" and then I scrolled down to the bottom of the image. The picture would have been so much cooler...
...If I wasn't laying in the immediate foreground.
I honestly have no idea why I was just laying there, in the middle of the Cashman Center, being dead (or possibly asleep?).

So yeah. I was sick as a dog yesterday, am getting better today, and will probably still be feeling kind of crappy tomorrow. I have so much to look forward to.

I can't even listen to too much music beause it hurts my ears, or look at the computer/TV for too long before it starts to burn my eyes. Being sick sucks.

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Also, to Kaela,

Dude, your posts don't suck! But we do miss having you around to joke with and stuff. Lately, we've been talking and we're just like, "Damn, making fun of Kellie just isn't the same without Kaela around. Neither is making Dirty Hill jokes."
And if you do think your life is boring now, it's because YOU GREW UP WITHOUT US. D8<>
Just kidding, just kidding. xD
But yeah, we totally miss you and you need to contact us as soon as possible when you come back down to Vegas for another visit.
Also, your latest post inspired me to draw a little Orca for you; once I figure out my scanner all over again I'll put it up here.

I GOT ODDA TINGS TO BE DOIN'.